SMACK.
BOOM.
KAPOOW.
I could tell you exactly where it happened. I mean this thought came on as strong as a wave crashing over me, and this isn't the first time this has happened to me. The thought was this- "Why in the world, for crying out loud, would Tyler have stuck with me while we were dating, engaged, and even first married?"
I was such a brat. I remember thinking things like, "Tyler sure is lucky to have gotten me!" Ha-Ha-Ha! funny thing is, I was completely serious. I put him through such hell. I was so indecisive. One day I loved him, and the next day I didn't. Why would he have put up with such nonsense?
So I asked him. And you know what he said?
"I never doubted that you were the one. I knew you'd come around."
Seriously?
Now instead of thinking, "Tyler sure is lucky to have gotten me" I think, "How in the world did I get so lucky to have gotten Tyler?"
All this contemplating brought me back to one of my very favorite quotes of all time-
"You have always given me wings to fly, and I have loved you for it."
-Marjorie Pay Hinckley
Those words bring tears to my eyes because that is exactly how I feel about my husband. When we were first married I was in a time of such confusion and doubt. I was still trying to figure out who I wanted to be. But instead of telling me who I should be or hindering my growth, he supported me. He would get excited about all my dreams. He would tell me I could do it. He gave me the resources to do it. And he would never let me settle or give up.
He gave me wings.
Thank you sweetie. I just can't believe how lucky I am. Happy Valentines Day!
3 comments:
Yes, you were a brat. :) And it is totally understandable. You met your eternal companion before you thought you would. Many things happen in life like that. Wait...what...this isn't what this was supposed to look like.... But when you look at it with your spiritual eyes, you see God's hand in all of it. All of it.
When I first got married I felt the same as you...Mark was SO lucky to get me. Was I ever wrong! I am definitely the lucky one.
Happy Valentine's Day to you and Tyler!
I can totally relate to your words! I remember feeling that same way. I don't know if I necessarily thought Casey was lucky to have me, actually I thought he was kind of crazy to love me so much! I was just so confused by my new life. It took me by surprise and it was all so different than I thought it would be. Oh seriously...the hell I put him through. I think about that a lot and I am eternally grateful that he stuck with me. I think those men are smarter than we give them credit for. They know what they want and they have faith in the decision they make. What great examples they are!
Made me cry.
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